I had nowhere to go but directly to the Bible, andto the philosophy or workings of my own mind, as revealed in consciousness. He found the whole conversation in the town wassuch as greatly to annoy him, for he was an unconverted man. She gave me an answer that led me to understand that she did not know what itwas to pray for her. Finney was invited to preach in Utica, New York. I was enabled to roll the burden upon Him; and I obtainedthe assurance in my own mind that the woman would not die, and indeed that she wouldnever die in her sins. B's mill - Cases of restitution - Conversion of the miserly mill-owner - Labors in Manchester - Want of cooperation - Return home.
I have said what I have in relation to his views, because I think it applicable, I am afraid I must say, to many of the ministers even of the present day. The mother seemed to be in realtravail of soul day and night. As he sunk down he groaned, and then cried or shrieked out, that he wassinking to hell. Feeling that it was infinitely dangerous to leave thiscase as it was, I went the next morning to see the family. Gillett would preach some of his old sermons, which I knew verywell could not be adapted to the state of things. Without any expectation of it, without ever having the thoughtin my mind that there was any such thing for me, without any recollection that Ihad ever heard the thing mentioned by any person in the world, the Holy Spirit descendedupon me in a manner that seemed to go through me, body and soul.
This meeting was very much like the one we had had the night before. Nay, I found that I was unwilling to do anything else. Of this, however, I knew nothing at the time. For more information on the methods of his predecessors see William P. The new settlers, being mostly from New England, almost immediately established common schools; but they had among them very little intelligent preaching of the Gospel. You havebeen praying for a revival of religion ever since I have been in Adams, and yet youhave it not. The fear and abhorrence of him had become very general; I believe; so that when he came in, some of the people got up and retired.
Notwithstanding the baptism I had received, this temptationso obscured my view that I went to bed without feeling sure that my peace was madewith God. She hadevidently been made to believe that she was almost, if not quite, a Christian. I found myself so muchexercised, and so borne down with the weight of immortal souls, that I was constrainedto pray without ceasing. I cannot believe they are taught in the Bible. I then went to the office,and found that Squire W had gone to dinner. Gale in pursuing my theological studies, thepresbytery was finally called together at Adams to examine me; and, if they couldagree to do so, to license me to preach the Gospel. I had supposed that I had not much regard for the opinions of others, and I had been quite singular in attending prayer meetings, and in the degree of attention that I had paid to religion, while in Adams.
When they had examined me, they voted unanimously to license me to preach. He relied upon his own enlightened, albeit theologically untutored, reason. But anyone can judge whether such preachingwas calculated to instruct or interest a young man who neither knew nor cared anythingabout religion. But I could not pray there in the house; and I thoughtif I could get alone, where I could pour out my voice with my heart, I could pray. I observed as soon as she came in, that she waved her head and gave a very gracefulmotion to her plumes. I knew his countenance,and kept my eye upon him; I very soon became satisfied that he had not come in tooppose, and that he was in great anguish of mind. But still my pride must show itself.
Just at dark Squire W, seeing thateverything was adjusted, bade me goodnight and went to his home. With your views of the atonementhe cannot be answered. This is the way in which that churchhad been organized and continued. The power to work miracles and the gift of tongues were given as signs to attest the reality of their divine commission. When I pursued this course, I found invariably that the day would close without any perceptible advance being made.
I wept it out; and the vision, if it may be so called, passed away andleft my mind calm. But her fatherwas, at first, quite indignant. Further opposition - Victory in prayer - Dr. Gale, my minister, was standingat the door of the church, and as I came up, all at once the glory of God shone uponand round about me, in a manner most marvelous. He said he believed he had been in the way of the church; and then confessed that he had discouraged the church when they had proposed to pray for me. The man of the house and his wife were both professors of religion.
The minister sent offimmediately, and secured the help of one of the most proselyting Baptist ministersthat I ever knew. Just before I was through, the deacon of the Presbyterian church had occasion togo out, with a child that had sat with him during the long meeting. No one seemed ready to open the meeting; but the house was packed to its utmost capacity. But the moment I did so, my mouth was shut. Lansing's painful experience - Public confession. Some men of the strongest nerves were so cut down by the remarkswhich were made, that they were unable to help themselves, and had to be taken homeby their friends.
It was too intense for the eyes. We engaged in prayerfor the man who fell in the pew; and before he left the house, I believe, his anguishpassed away, and he rejoiced in Christ. I did not suppose then, nor do I now, that this Baptism was simply the power to work miracles. I remained in that neighborhood, I think, for two or three days, and conversed moreor less with such people as I could meet with. It was the next week, I think, that I called in at Mr. S's new baptism - Conversion of Mr.
They went on in this way untilone of them suddenly fell dead. Sometimes I would pursue a wrong course in fasting, and attempt to examine myselfaccording to the ideas of self-examination then entertained by my minister and thechurch. They exhorted each other to wake up and be engaged, and to pray earnestly for a revival of religion, asserting that if they did their duty, prayed for the outpouring of the spirit, and were in earnest, that the Spirit of God would be poured out, that they would have a revival of religion, and that the impenitent would be converted. This result, as I shall mention in its place, at first annihilatedhis hope as a Christian, and finally made him quite another man as a minister. I do not wonder, and did not at the time, that he was shocked at my views and purposesin relation to preaching the Gospel. There was a large schoolhouse, where I held a weekly lecture; and it soon becamemanifest that the work was spreading in the direction of Rome and Utica. But for that evening and the next day they were fullof wrath.